I wish I could cry

I wish I could cry.
I wish the tears would run down my face uncontrollably until I'm almost drowned by them.
I wish the uncontrollable sadness could take over my body and mind. I wish so badly to get the feelings out. They are trapped so tightly in my brain that no matter how sad I feel, no matter how overwhelmed I become they stay inside to the point where I can’t feel them anymore, they are just an extension of me. Sometimes I force myself to cry, in hope that it releases even a fraction of what I feel, in hope that maybe one cry will lead to the next and I can actually feel.
I wish so badly I could feel.

-Anonymous